Neither Could Dylan

Honestly it hurts too much to think
Of you with anyone but me
And I’m not trying to be anything but happy

I let go so long ago it seems
But the extensions of these dreams still call and reach for me
And I’m not trying to do anything but sleep

When I think back to the day
Before all of this
And you
Washed over me
The relief I crave
Seem as distant as the sea
From a mountain peak

And I’m not trying to say anything,
Okay?

This was all a big mistake
This was all a big mistake
This was all a big mistake
This was all a big mistake

This was all a big mistake
Fell apart and there I stay
Floating in the pool of apathy
Diluted by recovery
Affixed to the idea of who we were trying to be
This was all a big mistake
Fell apart and there I stay
Floating in the pool of apathy
Diluted by recovery
Affixed to the idea of a better way to change

Honestly it hurts too much to think
Of you with anyone but me
And I’m not trying to be anything but happy

Written by: Jaimee Jakobczak, 2022

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